Friday, February 11, 2011

where the well of human hatred is shallow and dry


We're all having a helluva time. There's no denying it. This life is tough. As someone only slightly different from me once said, "Now ain't no time to be soft. You gotta be hard as a rock or go under." I think that's right but with certain restrictions. We oughtn't be hard to everything.

This song has been in my head all day and off and on over the past two months or so. Give it a good honest listen, please.

Let me observe that humankind wants truth. We search everywhere for it. We transcend great heights and wallow in the filthiest depths for the smallest morsel.

It's interesting.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Who are you to blow the whole thing?

There ain’t no one home but me so I’m gonna play records as long and as loud as I want into the small hours.

The first up is Mardi Gras by Creedence Clearwater Revival. It is regarded as garbage (allmusic.com gives it one and a half stars). I don’t mind. It’s good enough for what it’s for tonight.

I can say that my only real regret for the 2010 Christmas season is not listening to my Tennessee Ernie Ford Christmas album. The holiday ended 35 minutes ago and I’ll have to wait a real long time before spinning that one.

A song that has been ringing in my ears for the past month or so is “Proud Flesh” by husband&wife. http://www.daytrotter.com/dt/husbandandwife-concert/20031305-3737785.html  Listen to it here. Download it for free if it gets you like it’s been getting me.

Of course I don’t believe in evil spirits but it’s hard to keep it up when they’re every place I see.

It’s important to remember as often as possible that you aren’t the only one having a helluva time. My Pa said something like that to me today speaking of someone he loves very much. It gets hard to keep your head up when the world gets ugly. But…

Don’t throw away your love. Who are you to know the whole thing? Who are you to blow the whole thing?

One of the greatest challenges is to avoid being embittered or jaded by pain and hurt. I think it is impossible to avoid without hope of something better. Things will work out. Don’t throw away your love. You can’t see what is ahead. The saddest thing would be blowing the whole thing by throwing away that love. Doncha do it, now.

Remember this: the road is long and there ain’t a bend in it. Not all accounts are settled in this finite existence. There is glory beyond what can be seen in these few years of life. Everything will be made right.

Thank you, husband&wife.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Blow Away.

Just watch it. I know it’s 5 and a half minutes but you won’t regret it. Just watch it. It’ll put the rest of this nonsense into a bit clearer perspective, if that is at all possible.

The world is a big tough place. As I get older and see more and more, that fact is driven home to me in sometimes brutal ways. There is significance in the term “endure to the end” found in some religious texts. It’s because that is sometimes all that we can do: hope to not be burnt away in the refining of our lives. Endure. Hold on.

Gonna be a twister to blow everything down
That ain't got the faith to stand its ground
Blow away the dreams that tear you apart
Blow away the dreams that break your heart
Blow away the lies that leave you nothing but lost and brokenhearted

I've been holding onto some dreams that need to be blown away. Someone a lot wiser than me described faith as hoping for something that can't be seen but is still true. My expectations of the future have left me a bit lost and broken hearted because they lacked that truth. Lacking the truth means that they can't have the faith to stand their ground when the twister of life starts a-blowin. And thanks to God that it does blow. By golly, it hurts and it's scary and sometimes all we can do is endure but that twister serves a great and divine purpose that is pointing us all towards something better. So pack your bags and head straight into the storm.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Leaking

I got this:

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Because I got this:

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My right elbow may never heal again.

Friday, November 28, 2008

She called it an Artist's Walk.

I took a walk tonight through the streets of Provo. All of my roommates are gone for the holiday which is a nice thing because it prompts me to get out of the stale air of my apartment and into the night. As I was walking I noticed some thoughtful anarchist literature lovingly attached to some of the alleyways of this town. It is somehow reassuring to know that there are such people here in this Mormon mecca. However, I can't help but feel the animosity that these individuals have for the Mormon church as a whole. In some ways, that worries me.

People get so fed up with the Mormon church as a whole because they have a bad encounter with a careless member of the sect. That isn't fair. Many people instantly become very guilty of the intolerance and profiling that they accuse these Mormons of.

It seems to me as if we are much too busy worrying about the labels that we give to each other and ourselves. Those who put up those posters call themselves anarchists. They call Mormons bigots and Republicans and homophobes. What is it all about really? I feel as if we get so caught up in our labels that we push any common ground so far out of our view that with it goes any desire or possibility to cultivate understanding and get along. People are so eager to find their little niche with a sign on the outside that proudly displays what they consider themselves to be. They poke their heads out to find those in similar niches around them so that they can get together and murmur and complain and caress each other's peace of mind. To what end?

Anarchists are so hellbent on change that they have accepted violence as a means to the end. They believe that there is no way to reach these individuals so the only solution is a tactfully placed molotov cocktail, machete in hand standing atop a mountain of costly adorned corpses. Even if they do not mean it literally, they mean it symbolically. It has stopped being a matter of conversion and education and it has become a matter of subversion and mutilation.

As a people, we will be much happier if we seek to understand the common ground that we walk on and then agree to disagree on the other things. At risk of being labeled a hippie, I will say that we need to cultivate more peace and love through service to Mankind and less dissonance and disunity through labeling. You may be a Mormon but you are a human being first. You may be an anarchist but you are a human being first. Even as a devout Mormon, I find that in some instances I have more in common with any given anarchist than I do with any given Mormon bishop. Does that make me any less of a faithful disciple of Christ or member of my faith? No. It means that I am a human being and love certain qualities about both the Mormon and the anarchist because it is a matter of humanity.

I have my standards. I follow certain laws, not because I am blindly shackled to them by fear of breaking tradition. It was a long time ago that my beliefs stopped being a matter of tradition and became a matter of conversion. I really believe these things. I follow the Prophet. I study the Word. And even amongst this, I find such refreshing truth in these anarchist publications. These people live so free and beautifully, with lives unburdened by the cares of over stimulus and medications and bank accounts and processed foods. They seek simplicity in life -- the same simplicity that Thoreau taught -- the same simplicity that a modern day Mormon Apostle echoed just last October.

Let's be less desirous to find safety in labels. Let's scare ourselves by throwing our labels to the wind and seeking Truth wherever it may be found. Let's love individuals. Let's stop finding each other burdensome or annoying or less-than or greater-than and start finding each other interesting at least and fascinating at best. Our lives will be enriched. We will make friends and learn Truth that we would have otherwise gone our whole lives without discovering.